Ten Months

Hudson,

Sweet boy, today is Easter Sunday. Today marks ten months since we said goodbye. Last Easter, I was twenty-two weeks pregnant with you and received this bunny rattle as a little sussie from your grandmother. I had hands all over me at church gushing over my baby bump. The picture your Daddy and I took that day was the first one where you were truly visible. It is one of the few pictures I have of our family of three.

If you were here with us today you would be in your seersucker best! We'd go to church together, then to the country club for brunch, taking way too many pictures with the Easter Bunny and in the petting zoo. We would start new family traditions together with a sunrise walk around the neighborhood, a bunny pancake breakfast, an egg hunt you couldn't do yet but we'd try and pretend, there'd be an Easter basket filled with your Children's Bible and candy really meant for your Daddy because you couldn't eat it yet. Instead, in our reality, there are Easter lilies in your memory on the altar at church this morning.

Though there is sadness, we choose to focus on the Easter message of new life and rebirth in Christ. As you were to grow up, we would teach you about the meaning of Easter. There is a saying that we are Easter people living in a Good Friday world. On Good Friday, Jesus was hung on the cross and hurt so badly that he died for us and went to Heaven. His earthly family and friends were so sad, just like Mommy and Daddy were when you left us. Jesus was taken down from the cross and buried in a tomb. On Easter Sunday, the tomb was empty, he had risen from the dead and resurrected to Heaven, giving those who believe in Him eternal life.

Sweet boy, we've experienced our own Good Friday in losing you. It has been dark and sad, we were angry and in deep pain. However, God's promise allows us to be hopeful Easter people. Hopeful of new life and that our sorrow will be resurrected. Today, we are Good Friday people, but we are also Easter people who are hopeful. We will celebrate new life and everlasting life with the promise that we will be reunited again someday in Heaven.

Sending you an Easter basket full of love and kisses today.

All my love, forever and always.

Mommy